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I’ve often thought about when my real drinking problems began. I’ve gone in many stages, from just social drinking, to having a really bad night where I got wasted, back to just social drinking, But I can pinpoint when it all started feeling different, and it wasn’t just a social thing to do. It wasContinue reading “August 21, 2018”

Yesterday was a pretty good day over all. My son was busy with his friends, and my husband and I had the day to ourselves, and I was in a good mood and not really feeling all that bitchy. I woke up super early (I’ve been waking up at 4AM most mornings since I’ve beenContinue reading “August 19, 2018”

I’ve been a real bitch lately. Not to everyone, but definitely to my husband, and I’m worried my marriage is not going to survive my sobriety He is irritating the shit out of me, and I can’t stop judging him. I feel so wrong and guilty, but if I’m honest, and that is what weContinue reading “August 17,2018”

I went to AA for the first time about 4 years. I never had the courage to go, although I longed to go, and this time love for my family trumped my fear. One Sunday I had just gotten back with my daughter from a quick whirlwind of visiting colleges where she was thinking aboutContinue reading “August 15, 2018”

Good morning ladies! I received a letter from my sister yesterday. She is in an inpatient rehab facility for alcoholism. She is in really bad shape, and at one point we thought we were going to lose her. This morning I’m going to write her back, and I’m praying for the right words to come.Continue reading “August 14, 2018”

While I was in Chicago with my friends on Saturday I was really curious to see how different a sober party day feels compared to a “Let’s go day drinking day!” I’ve never gotten to examine this unless you count my 3 pregnancies, but then I was too tired to hang, and too irritated toContinue reading “August 13, 2018”

I keep thinking about all of us that are new to sobriety, or really struggling hard, and I feel like it’s all so fragile with the mood swings, cravings, the woe is me feelings. At times I do not comment on other’s posts because I’m afraid I’ll say the wrong thing, because what do IContinue reading “August 12, 2018”

I was sneaking peeks at this site before my drive home yesterday (well, actually all day) and I felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude, support, community, knowledge, you name it. I felt that I had finally found a place that I’ve been searching for for so long, so I started to cry. On the highway.Continue reading “August 11, 2018”

I knew there was danger yesterday evening. I knew my husband was at a golf outing, my youngest son was working at his part time job, and that I would be alone. That would have been a dream for my drinking self, to open a bottle of wine, pour a glass and wipe a demandingContinue reading “August 10, 2018”

If I make it through today I will be one week sober!!! It doesn’t sound very long, but deep inside me it feels like a long time. Yesterday was hard though. I am in sales, and it is a high stress job. I run all over the place, in and out of my car, talkingContinue reading “August 9, 2018”